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  He knew he couldn’t be with Kat. He knew he had to stay away.

  But he couldn’t bear to imagine her losing everything. He had read the death notice for Uncle Doughy while researching. Jason knew that everything was resting squarely on the shoulders of one fearless girl.

  And he refused not to help.

  But that’s all he would do.

  He would help her and Peytonville. And that’s it.

  He sighed as he sat on the edge of his bed. He remembered the sweetness of her mouth and the soft fullness of her breasts.

  God, I’m a moron.

  Chapter Thirteen

  “What are you doing here?” Kat asked.

  She looked at the troop of men that had suddenly barged in through her diner.

  At the head was Jason, looking as good as ever in a clean but worn pair of jeans and a tight white shirt. She could swear she saw every ripple of his abs through his shirt.

  Giving herself an abrupt head shake, she chastised herself, he’s just the neighborhood repairman. That’s all he is to you. Don’t go making yourself out to be another…mistake.

  The word still hurt her.

  And she had felt tears stinging her eyes as she had left Jason’s loft. But once she had reached the diner, her tears had dried and her head had cooled a bit.

  Yes, she was attracted to Jason. That much was a definite given. And it seemed, at least sometimes, that Jason was attracted to her. But in the end, she knew it would not work. And perhaps, classifying her as a mistake was a blessing in disguise.

  Kat looked over at Malcolm who was doing his best Robert DeNiro glare from the grill at Jason and his men.

  She was the head of her family now. Malcolm and especially Dillon needed her. She was swamped with the worry of not only her diner but her town. If her town disappeared, so would Doughy Pop’s. And no matter what Jason had said about the Carolina Society or whatever, she was still unconvinced that she was completely in the clear.

  And even if she was, how would it be fair to saddle on a stranger the care of two younger brothers, one of whom was ill? Who could understand her sporadic midnight runs to the hospital if Dillon had an alarming cough or a bloody nose? He needed careful monitoring and that took up most of Kat’s energy. After so many years of playing the caretaker and surrogate mother, she wasn’t sure she was even fit to be in a normal relationship with a man.

  Perhaps yesterday had been a mistake. On both their parts.

  Jason had clearly kissed without thinking. And she had greedily accepted, without thinking of her responsibilities.

  Jason pointed to one corner of the diner and gave an order to two men and then pointed to another corner and gave orders to the remaining two. The few diners present watched curiously as these men pulled out measuring tapes and notepads.

  “What are you doing here?” Kat repeated, watching the four men carefully measure and take note of her restaurant.

  “Well, if we’re going to be sprucing up Peytonville, we have to start with its figurehead—Doughy Pop’s,” Jason said, giving her a grin.

  Although his grin was playful, his eyes were soft and warm. Forgive me? they seemed to ask.

  Kat hesitated. She looked up at this curious ex-soldier who seemed almost as torn as she was.

  She slowly crossed her arms.

  Jason’s brow rose infinitesimally, as if worried what kind of anger she was about to unleash on him. She saw him stand a little straighter as if preparing to take whatever she threw at him.

  Kat frowned. Jason’s expression became serious and grim.

  “Then why did Hoyt’s get new a storefront first?” she said in a serious tone.

  Surprise then relief crossed Jason’s face in a matter of a few seconds. Matching her tone, he replied, “Whatever we did at Hoyt’s was only to make sure Doughy’s had a proper backdrop to shine against.” He gave a formal bow. “Rest assured, Doughy Pop’s will outshine them all.”

  Kat and Jason exchanged stifled shy smiles, both acknowledging that they would move forward as best they could in a civil and adult manner.

  “Cha!” Malcolm suddenly snorted as he slapped his spatula against the grill. Immediately a cry of pain followed as grease splattered against his glasses.

  Kat laughed and so did Janelle. The tension was broken and work commenced.

  Jason was true to his word in that he seemed truly focused on redoing Doughy Pop’s to the best of his ability. He came in with drawn out plans that were frighteningly accurate of the diner’s interior. Kat wondered how he had done it without having come previously to measure the place.

  She had stared at the plans in awe. He had to have a mind of a machine to have remembered every detail.

  Over the next few days, he came in regularly either with some of his project men or by himself to start work on the place.

  “See, this is where we’ll expand the kitchen a bit so that you can have an extra set of ovens,” he explained pointing at the blueprint. “That way you can bake bigger batches without having to wait for the oven that’s being used for regular menu items.”

  Kat couldn’t believe the thought and care he had put into the planning. It was clear he had really tried to think of the needs and wants of a baker.

  “And then right here, if we move the bar a foot and a half to the left and then moved this table a foot back, we could have a display case for your cakes and baked goods,” he said, pointing to another part of the blueprint. “And it lines up perfectly with that front window so passerbys can see what’s cooking here at Doughy’s.”

  Kat shook her head. “This is better than I could have imagine,” she said, truly meaning it. “But how is this being paid? I couldn’t afford all this.”

  “The Carolina Society,” Jason answered, rolling up the map. “They apply on behalf of a town for statewide and federal grants to help preserve cultural landmarks.”

  Kat’s lips curled up in amusement. Peytonville was a nice place but a cultural landmark?

  Jason caught the look. He grinned and shrugged. “Hey, this town has seen enough history to be able to say it has culture. I think saving it is worth a grant or two.”

  Kat couldn’t argue with that.

  She was about to ask if they needed to shut down the diner at any point for the construction when Malcolm shoved past her and wedged himself roughly between the two. Standing behind the bar, they made an awkward and crowded threesome but it was clear by Malcolm’s stubborn chin that he wasn’t going anywhere.

  “What are you doing?” Kat asked trying to shove her brother away so she had some room. He stood his ground though, not moving an inch. The crowded space wasn’t helped any by his huge black plastic tray bucket of freshly washed cups.

  “I’m here to stack the cups,” he said petulantly, clearly not liking how closely his sister was standing to Jason.

  Kat sighed. “The glasses are still steaming, Malcolm! You could’ve let them cool a little. Janelle would’ve taken care of them.”

  Malcolm shoved Jason and Kat further apart as he knelt to stack the glasses under the bar. “Some people are trying to keep the place Death Eater free,” Malcolm muttered just loud enough for Kat to hear. “It helps people eat better.”

  “Ah,” Jason suddenly said in an understanding voice. “What’s the patronus for Doughy Pop’s? I bet it’s Uncle Doughy glaring at the intruder, isn’t it?”

  Kat and Malcolm stared in stunned surprise at Jason.

  Jason gave them an innocent smile before filing away the blueprints.

  Kat remembered two years ago when the only person Jason could associate with wizards was Merlin. And now here he was, cracking Harry Potter jokes as if he was the number one fan of J.K. Rowling.

  It was clear that he hadn’t just browsed a book or two either. He had actually read them. Kat stared up at the side profile of this enigmatic man. He couldn’t have possibly read them for her….

  Could he?

  ***

  It was clear over the next coming d
ays that Jason had done more than read Harry Potter.

  Slowly but surely the Brothers Construction men came in to improve the aging diner. They worked from the inside out so that they would cause the least amount of disturbance to the patrons.

  Kat was amazed watching the work be done. How long had she dreamed of making Doughy Pop’s something extra special? Uncle Do had worked hard to build something worthwhile and she wanted to make sure it stood the test of time.

  Her eyes grew round as dinner plates as she watched drills puncturing kitchen walls and new ovens being installed.

  And she could tell Malcolm was fascinated as well.

  How could he not? This was the place they had grown up in as children. And for the first time in their lives, they were seeing it change.

  Every time one of the men came in with a new tool or gadget, she could see Malcolm peer through the corner of his eye, watching with intent concentration.

  Kat watched with tenderness as her brother subtly flexed his thin arms and shrugged his bony shoulders as he watched the Brothers Construction men heave giant pieces of equipment with their bulging muscles.

  Uncle Doughy had been a good uncle. A great uncle. But he was a workaholic. He had inherited a sudden family to take care of and he took his responsibilities seriously. So although they had seen Uncle Doughy every day at home and at the diner, they had not had the typical uncle/nephew/niece relationship.

  Kat knew just how much Malcolm and Dillon had missed out on from not having a father in their lives. Especially as such gangly and awkward boys, they could’ve really benefited from a nurturing male figure who could’ve shown them more masculine hobbies that didn’t require so much physical grace like car repair or carpentry.

  Try as she might, Kat knew a sister was a poor substitute for a dad.

  Malcolm had a quick mind and was well suited for mechanical work. She had always hoped he’d become an engineer or something one day. And as she watched him steal quick glances at the manly men redoing their diner, that hope for her brother bloomed again with a passion.

  Then her heart caught fire in another way that she had never expected.

  While monitoring one of the men who was measuring a corner of the kitchen to install a new worktop, Jason suddenly turned and called out to Malcolm.

  “Are you busy there, Malcolm?” he said casually.

  As usual of late, the diner was nearly empty. Business was still on the downhill for most of Peytonville. Malcolm had been standing by the grill, making busy work of scuffing it clean when he had hardly cooked that day.

  Malcolm turned in surprise and looked over at Jason. “Why?” he asked suspiciously, not forgetting to give him his trademark glare.

  Jason jerked his head over at the man measuring the space. “You know, Dave here is a hand short. It’d be a big help if you come make sure our measurements are level,” he said.

  Kat sucked in a breath.

  He had said it so casually, so naturally. But Kat had seen it. Dave, just like all the other men of Brothers Construction, was a very competent person. She doubted he needed any help at all.

  But instead Dave kept working as if he had not heard Jason at all. And Jason kept his face casually neutral after dropping the offer to Malcolm.

  Kat’s heart nearly burst with tender love when she saw the yearning under Malcolm’s stubborn gaze. She knew he wanted to have the experience of being with men. Working with men. Learning manly things. He wanted to know that despite his skinny frame, he could do the same kind of work as these large, muscled men.

  Emotions warred across his face. Finally Malcolm pushed up his glasses with the back of his hand. “You’d think you’d have brought enough men with you for the job,” he grumbled. But he stepped away from the grill nonetheless.

  “Nah,” Jason said. “You’re here.”

  It had been said so casually that it had nearly slipped passed Malcolm. But then, with realization, a slow creeping flush of pleasure tinged his cheeks. He had been viewed as a competent man by Jason. Clearly, the compliment had not been lost on him.

  And then immediately Jason explained what he needed Malcolm to do. He spoke with no condescension or judgment. Kat could see Malcolm was nervous at being found lacking in his knowledge and skill but Jason gave him no chance to feel useless.

  He was put to work immediately. Dave, who was the quiet type, immediately handed Malcolm a level and a pencil and pointed to the blueprints. He gave a few words on how to record and where to mark. Although he was a man of few words, Kat could see him watching carefully over Malcolm and taking care to correct his mistakes in a non-judgmental way.

  Kat looked up and saw Jason watching over the two men with satisfied pride on his face. As if feeling her eyes on him, Jason turned and caught her gaze. His smile softened and his eyes darkened with warmth.

  Could he possibly understand how much this meant to Malcolm? To her?

  She gave him a wobbly smile before rushing out of the kitchen. She needed to catch her breath and let her tears fall in peace. She had seen that eager look of pleasure on Malcolm’s face as Dave explained the measurements he was taking.

  And she had seen Jason casually crafted attitude to lure Malcolm in, despite knowing that he was on her brother’s blacklist.

  Kat bit her lip. Her heart pounded.

  She leaned her head against the corner of the empty diner.

  He’s only here for a few weeks, she reminded herself. He’ll be leaving again in no time. He said so himself.

  And yet, remembering those dark green eyes creasing as he smiled at her, Kat couldn’t help but pray that that day never come.

  Chapter Fourteen

  “Don’t tell me a big, strapping young man like yourself is afraid of hospitals?” Kat teased as she walked down a hospital corridor with an increasingly nervous Jason.

  Jason made an odd twitchy dodge as a nurse walked passed him. “No, not nervous,” he corrected with huffy annoyance. “I just always feel too…big around here. Like I’m gonna break something or knock something over.”

  “You’ll be fine,” Kat assured him with a smile. Although she could see where his discomfort stemmed from. Jason was a big man and even in the wide corridor, he took up a considerable amount of space. All the passing nurses couldn’t help but stare up and gawk at the tall imposing man.

  But even though he had this awkwardness towards hospitals, Jason had been the one to offer the ride over to Kat.

  With her car still out of commission, she needed a ride to the hospital. Dillon had recently been checked in for a very high fever and she wanted to make sure he was doing okay.

  Jason had been at the diner, watching his men meticulously work on the kitchen when he had turned towards her and said, “I heard you were going to the hospital.”

  Kat looked up in surprise, her hands dusty with flour as she prepped dough for the next day. “I am,” she said cautiously, wondering where he was going with this.

  “Well,” he said, “I know your car is kaput. Need a friendly neighborhood driver to take you there?”

  Kat raised an eyebrow. “Friendly neighborhood repairman. Friendly neighborhood driver. Just how friendly do you want to get around here?” she said, meaning to tease.

  But almost instantaneously, Jason’s eyes had darkened at her words. A spark of desire smoldered behind those rich green eyes and she could see the corded muscles of his neck leap in response to her unintentional remarks.

  “Just friendly enough,” he said huskily.

  They had ridden over to the hospital together with Kat wondering how Dillon would react to finally seeing the mysterious Jason Daniels. She knew Malcolm had been giving his brother detailed reports of the town’s activities. Kat wondered if Dillon had also noticed Malcolm’s attitude shift towards Jason.

  Ever since that day Jason had invited Malcolm to help out his work crew, Malcolm had practically transformed overnight. Anyone could clearly see the hero worship in his eyes.

  Once when Jaso
n had gone to Hoyt’s to check out the work in progress, Malcolm had fidgeted the whole time in the kitchen as he waited for his new favorite person to return.

  Kat couldn’t help but tease him a little about the sudden turnaround.

  “Looks like someone is liking their taste of dark magic,” she said with a wink.

  Malcolm gave a huff but was unable to hide the excitement in his eyes when he saw the Brothers Construction truck pull up.